so i may or may not have mentioned this on here a couple of times but i am participating in a sweet little something called the 30 Day Detox, commandeered by the beautiful Kaelah.
today i want to make a list of five things that will make me feel better about myself and give me a more positive outlook on life in general. my goal is to do these things during the next thirty days during my mind & body detox!
one
private journaling
as a gift for my birthday i got a $25 amazon gift card from some dear friends of mine!
{thanks jared & alina!}
i decided that in addition to journaling in public here on the blog i would like to start a private journal as well. somewhere to document the crazy in my head that i don't want to share with the world.
i know - hard to think there is more crazy underlying this. ;)
i also know that i have to be real with myself. after a day of writing blogs, working {funny that blogging comes before work.. maybe i should reassess my priorities...}, doing laundry, loving my husband, playing with dogs, cooking and cleaning... am i really going to want to write a long drawn out soliloquy in my journal?
ummm. negative ghostrider. ;)
so with my amazon gift card i bought this:
one line every day for five years. and for the first thirty days i will write something positive that happened to me that day. no negativity. no sadness. no griping. i have so many blessings so why should i focus on these things? one positive thought a day. :)
two
lose seven pounds
there is no significance to the number seven. there isn't a medical reason i need to lose seven pounds. i just know that it would make me happy and i would feel better about myself if i did it. i just kind of figure that seven is a reasonable goal for thirty days.
addendum: figure out how to lose seven pounds while having nutella on toasted sourdough bread every day. conundrum.
three
paint the half bathroom in my house
i have got to lose the fear of starting a project. i need to get over myself and just do it already.
so here is a secret. i love to look at pretty pictures of homes. i love to dream of changing my house. i yearn for pretty and sensible and organized in my home. i lust after other people's spaces.
but pick up a paint brush and actually do something to make these dreams and yearnings come true? it gives me a stomach ache to think about it. what if the paint color i pick is wrong and makes the already tiny room feel smaller? what if i get halfway through it and run out of money? what if i finish it and i hate it? anxiety takes over and my brain reels with what ifs and fears and trepidations.
i need to get rid of the what ifs and anxiety. i need to make myself realize that nothing i can do is permanent. nothing can't be changed. and i need to realize the biggest what if of all...
what if i love it?
four
cook five meals we have never had before
in accordance with my favorite food bloggers, i want to get outside of the hamburger helper box and explore some new meals.
maybe i will be super-blogger-lady and actually photograph these and blog about them. if you are lucky. but don't they all sound deeeeelicious??
oh and i want to make this:
five
start working on my homemade/handmade business
{gasp}
i said that out loud?
i suppose it is true. i have a million ideas swimming in my head for things i can make and sell. i want to be creative and share it. i want to work from home.
my big three year goal is to
*pay off a big chunk of student loans & other miscellaneous debt
*have a baby
*stay at home and sell handmade products
{holy cannolli batman. saying it on here makes it real and that totally makes me all twisted-up-anxious inside}
i guess the best way to start that is to...
well... start it.
let me be clear. i want to do this simply to prove to myself that i can. i'm not out to make money or anything like that. (that is why i want to finish the debt off so i can do this without worrying about finances) so my goal in this next thirty days is to figure out what i want to do and how i am going to do it. and to make a plan and a list to get it done. because that is how my brain operates:
idea
announce
list
think
plan
list
plan
list
think
list
plan
DO IT
i do hope you stick around during the next thirty days to see where this might take me! :)
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